Being a mommy can really suck ass.
It takes ALL my patience, and energy every.single.day.
I sometimes wonder what the hell I was thinking having another one.
It’s so freaking hard. Every day. And, I’m dumb enough to stay home. I mean, I’m with these kids 24/7. And, few people “get” just how hard this is. I don’t get breaks. I can’t pee when I need to. Most days I’m lucky to eat twice. I don’t shit alone. My job is seeing to two other peoples needs – no 15 minute break, twice a day with an hour lunch.
And, I never get “off” of work. When someone needs me, I’m there all the time.
It’s so draining. And, it’s not always that great. I honestly have more bad days than good. That’s just the way it goes. In those bad days are good moments, and I guess that’s what I still do this.
I’m now convinced that you have to be a little crazy to have kids, and even more crazy to stay home with them.
At the end of the day, there isn’t much of “me” left. I hate that. I miss me.